I am having a really tough time lately with a lot of things.
Since graduating high school, all my friends have either moved away, stopped talking to me or are going to stop talking to me.
My best friend is leaving at the end of this month. I don’t want to think about it because I’ll get really upset. I have no one else in my town when she is gone and I don’t think I can handle that. She has always been the one to have more friends, have love, people that like her. I was always the one that sat on the sideline and just smiled when prompted. How am I supposed to make friends when she was always the one that introduced me to people. I am too introverted. It’s bloody terrible. When she leaves (she’s joining the Navy) I’ll have no one to talk to and I have a lot of issues that I need to talk about. I also don’t like going to the movies all of the time.
My two other closest friends are leaving during this year as well. I don’t think I can handle it. I can’t be alone anymore.
Uni is terribly stressful as well. The assignments that I have at the moment are overwhelming and confusing. I have decided to change courses as well and that is also confusing as hell.
I am also single as a single celled plankton. Which sucks.
I don’t know exactly why I’ve written this. I just needed to get what I had inside out.